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Wed, 31 Jan 2007

 

Plans for Divorce Transform

into New Commitment to Marriage


Dear Chief:

In late 2006, my marriage is near an end. After nine years of strife, there is little emotional or physical intimacy left in the relationship. A long succession of marriage counselors and psychologists are unable to reverse or slow the deterioration.

 

My wife is committed to working on the marriage, but I am repelled by the notion of any type of intimacy. Emotionally, I do not share my feelings, and do not receive hers. I detest the very idea of emotional expression, believing that feelings are by their nature random, misleading, and harmful. I strive for objectivity and dispassion. I study and admire Marcus Aurelius and the Greek stoics. I am at war with my feelings, and cannot seem to overcome them.

Our physical intimacy is in similar decline. After much physical passion early in the relationship, there is little physical intimacy left. Encounters are planned in advance, and spaced widely apart. At best, I view physical intimacy as a marital obligation. More commonly, I regard physical intimacy with a visceral aversion. At times even simple touching produces strong feelings of anxiety.

At the same time, I grow disconnected from two other important, personal interests. I withdraw from a successful business I start and operate. I arrive at work late. I delay in making decisions. I am slow to return calls and emails. I only act when circumstances are pressing. My employees grow increasingly frustrated.

Similarly, I reach a relatively successful level of trading, but cannot reach a higher level of performance. I spend vast amounts of time researching individual trading ideas, only to lose interest in each idea and move on to another.

A week before the TTP Workshop, I am despondent. I am unable to break the cycle of conflict in my marriage, and am unable to emotionally engage my wife.

 

My three year daughter bears witness to loud, angry fights. I am hurting her. I am also hurting my business and the people who work there. Time I could be spending with my family and business is wasted researching trading ideas that never come to fruition.

At bottom, I believe I possess significant character flaws that are destroying my life. I believe I am lazy. I believe I lack the ability to focus. I believe that I lack the capacity to love. Despite several attempts I cannot overcome those perceived shortcomings through the exercise of personal willpower. I feel hopeless. I feel as though I am thrashing through life uncontrollably, hurting many of those around me. I am disappointed by the person I have become, and question whether my existence in the world is of any positive significance.

During the workshop, I participate in TTP, the Hardball process, and the Rocks Process. In those exercises I am reconnected with my feelings. I am reunited with emotions I have been denying and detesting for years. Through that process I learn that feelings are functional, instructive, and integral to one’s existence.

 

I am surprised to learn that feelings can be enjoyable to experience, even those traditionally seen as negative, such as anxiety or sadness. I realize that my problems are not the result of a deficient work ethic, character, or personality.

 

I learn that coping mechanisms (“Rocks”) I adopted early in life are contributing to many of my problems. I realize that I can ameliorate many of my problems not through the exercise of greater personal discipline, but by observing and experiencing my emotions, appreciating them for what they are, and by using the Rocks process to create new options for dealing with emotionally charged events.

During the workshop I feel a serenity I have never experienced. I feel liberated from my past, and no longer bound by my desires for the future. I am living in the now. My mind is remarkably quiet, clear of the incessant, negative self-chatter that I have known for most of my life. I feel good about myself for the first time in a while. I feel a tremendous sense of love for Ed, my tribe, my family, and world around me.

After the workshop I return home. I am amazed. I immediately notice that my relationship with my wife has changed. I no longer feel anxious when talking about her feelings, or discussing the marriage. I no longer feel repulsed by the notion of emotional or physical intimacy.

 

We hug and touch frequently. We enjoy physical intimacy that is spontaneous and natural. We have fun.

On occasion my wife is confused by my newfound awareness. At times, when I openly express a “negative” feeling she becomes defensive and hostile. With my new Rock, I observe and experience my emotions, think about my options, and decide not to join in the hostility. She eventually calms down, we talk, and grow closer. Though the mood is at times awkward, there is a new sense of peace and trust in the house.

I go into the office with a new energy level. Instead of creating dreaded “To Do” lists, which I never complete, I experience my feelings and summarize my “Present Intentions.” My productivity soars. I complete several tasks I have been putting off for weeks. I meditate on the train ride to the office. I purposefully feel my feelings intermittently during the day. I feel bursts of joy and energy. When I feel anxious or agitated, I try to enjoy those feelings as well. My employees say that I seem relaxed. The mood in the office brightens.

As for my trading, when I return from the workshop I experience my feelings about trading. I feel that I want a long term system that trades infrequently. I feel no need to manage, or earn, large sums of money. I feel that my trading should resonate with my newfound peace, and my internal systems. I begin to code my trading system. Though I have not coded in 20 years, I find it enjoyable and fun. I laugh as I struggle for two hours over a minor routine. I feel like a child learning new things. I complete my first, rudimentary system two days after starting.

Thank you, Ed. Thank you, Tribe. In short, because of workshop, and your loving support, I feel as though I have started my life anew.

 

My marriage is improving, I feel energized about my business, and I am thoroughly enjoying the process of coding my system. I miss you all, and have you in my thoughts.

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

 

 

 

Before

 

 

 

After

 

 

Clips:

http://www.venables.co.uk/gifs/divorce.gif

http://kenpierpont.com/holly/category/home-family/

Wed, 31 Jan 2007

 

Nobel Intent: How Hallucinogens Work



Hello, Ed -

I hope your search for a home here in Austin is yielding the desired fruit.

I read this article this afternoon; you may find it interesting.

Cheers,

Gibbons

How hallucinogens work
http://arstechnica.com/journals/

science.ars/2007/1/31/6834

January 31, 2007 @ 11:00AM - posted by Matt Ford

How Hallucinogens Work

New work by a team of researchers has shed light on why hallucinogenic compounds cause altered states in creatures. It has long been known that hallucinogenic compounds have a high affinity for a certain receptor in the central nervous system (5-HT2A, or 2AR), and that when these receptors are blocked, the hallucinogenic side effects are mitigated. What has remained a mystery is why other non-hallucinogenic compounds with a similar affinity for these 2ARs do not produce similar side effects.

To gain insight into this apparent paradox, the researchers sent a group of mice off on an acid (LSD) trip and measured the hallucinogenic response. Now, as one may wonder, how do you measure whether a mouse is tripping or not? You can't ask them if they see the cheese in the trap get up and walk away on its own, but the researchers were able to measure a twitch that the mice exhibited only when hallucinating.

 

By focusing their work on the cortex—which has previously been shown to be the center of hallucination activity—the researchers found that LSD produced a distinct internal cellular signaling pathway that was rather different from other non-hallucinogenic compounds that bound to the same 2AR receptors. It is this distinct pathway that leads to the hallucinogenic response, while some chemicals bind to 2AR receptors the non-hallucinogens did not initiate the same pathway, and therefore lead to no hallucinations.

As another facet of this work the team ran similar tests on mice whose 2AR receptors were blocked. Here they found that when given LSD, the mice exhibited no signs of hallucinations, but when the 2AR receptors in the cortex alone were unblocked, LSD again became a hallucinogen in their system. While informative on its own, the researchers hope that by understanding the underlying signaling mechanism of hallucinogens, this work can help explain and offer better or new pharmacological treatments for other neuropsychiatric disorders.

 

Current methods are a shot in the dark and can often have severe side effects in addition to curing an ailment. Often current treatments' mechanisms are unknown, so it is believed that with a more thorough understanding of the mechanism—elucidated from this study—that new therapeutic treatments can be made more effective.

Thank you for the information.

 

 

 

Albert Hoffman

(1907 - )

 

Pre-sentimentalist

and Inventor of LSD

 

 

 

LSD Molecule

 

Lysergic acid diethylamide.


The diethylamide group is red

the indole ring is blue.



In the late 1930s, Albert Hoffman is working in the pharmacological department of Sandoz, in Basel, Switzerland. He is studying derivatives of lysergic acid, including systematically reacting the acid group with various reagents, to produce the corresponding amides, anhydrides, esters, etc. One of these derivatives is the diethylamide, made by addition of the -N(C2H5)2 group, and it was named LSD-25. The new substance doesn't appear to have any particularly useful medical properties, although the research report notes, in passing, that "the experimental animals became restless during the narcosis". For the next five years, nothing more occurs with the substance LSD-25.

But for some reason, Hoffman can not forget the relatively uninteresting LSD-25. In his book he says:

"A peculiar presentiment - the feeling that this substance could possess properties other than those established in the first investigations - induced me, five years after the first synthesis, to produce LSD-25 once again so that a sample could be given to the pharmacological department for further tests."

Clips and information:
http://www.chm.bris.ac.uk/

motm/lsd/lsd1_text.htm

Wed, 31 Jan 2007

 

Plunging and Being Heavy


What’s the difference between plunging and being heavy in the markets?

Your position might be big or small.

 

In either case, it's not how big it is;

it's how big you feel it is.

 

 

 

Plunging

 

 

 

Heavy

 

 

Clips:

http://brigite.com/

vichy_thong_one_piece_swimwear.htm http://www.elricm.com/Adamantium/

Female_black.jpg

Tue, 30 Jan 2007

 

Friday = Change Model Day


Hi again Ed!

Thanks for helping me to start my Trend Following Model. You have helped me staying on the path without even responding. The return is actually up around 10% since the start only one month ago. That is better than expected. Generally I'm not so used to currency bets but I have a few, in accordance with what my models signals, and they are performing good.

Since I don't want to change my model too often, I have dedicated the first Friday every month to be used as a "change model day". Meanwhile I just come up with ideas of improvements. This process keeps me from impulsively change my model. Now it's a more structured way of system developments. I have actually made one change, and that is to change the SL-level from 75 days lowest price to 75 days average price. The system is faster and the stop-loss levels change more continuously which gives me the opportunity to increase exposure faster.

Thank you for sharing your process.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007

 

I Really Want to Read Your Books!

Hi Ed!

I read among the TTP-FAQ pages that one of the contributors had read your books "Traders Window" and "Metaformation of winning". Where can I get them? Can I buy them from you through PayPal?

Thank you for your interest.

 

I am currently busy writing and re-writing.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007

 

My Experience with TTP


I wish to share my experience with TTP with you and the readers.

I discover www.seykota.com FAQ in 2003. I continue reading FAQ while attempting to experience my feelings solo (DIM), to no avail. I actually try TTP with a sibling. I recall feeling a constriction in my throat so intense, I am blown away. Unfortunately, I do not continue the process, stopping short of the zero point or joy point. I open up a can of worms as this feeling seems to stick with me, and it is not pleasant.

I finally muster the courage to join a tribe in the summer of 2006. Sending and receiving feelings with a group of strangers seems bizarre to me, but my gut insists I go for it, not to mention my throat. I consider this decision the best one of my life.

My first meeting is incredible. I feel like I enter a “twilight” zone, the zone of NOW.

 

I meet the members one by one and feel at ease. We begin drumming and proceed to check in. Before I know it, one by one, members take the hot seat while the rest receive with relentless encouragement. I enjoy receiving a lot. I am asked if I wish to take the seat and I say yes. I have a preconceived idea of what my forms may be, but I am not even close. I find myself on the floor, my fists clenching, my eyeballs bursting, screaming in rage. I know this is a feeling I last experience as a child and it feels great! I am launched into the flow.

I now look forward to hot seats and treat them as opportunities for growth. I think we are a powerful group with a leader who sets a great example. I continue to experience many positive changes in my life.


Thank you Tribe and Thank you Ed.

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

 

You're Not Alone

 

when you're in the zone.

 

 

Clip: http://fusionanomaly.net/twilightzone.html

Mon, 29 Jan 2007

 

Coming Out of a Draw Down


Dear Ed:

I hope you are well. I am writing to report my periodic progress to FAQ, consistent with the intention of the Tribe directory.

I was experiencing strong positive momentum in my life back in 10/06 and 11/06. I could honestly say I was happy. 'Genuinely happy for a while, I guess genuine peace is a better word. I was so happy yet in the back of my mind I was playing with myself saying "Can't be true, I know some problems are coming, watch."

 

Though I did not want problem I was testing intention = result. I experiment lot with this. Example was when I returned the rental car for thanks giving day I could not reach my friend who were supposed to pick me up at the rental car station. So I said let's try to see if this work. My intention is to go home by car. I returned the rental car and started walking toward my home which is miles away. 1 minutes later a car pulls right over my side. The driver goes "What's up [Name]!" Wow that's was a friend which I met through other friend about 4 years ago.

 

I told him my situation and he told me he can give ride to the train station. I said OK. When we got to the train station the original friend who was supposed to pick me up was looking for me at the train station. I was very excited. He bought me breakfast and gave me a ride to my home. This is just one example however there are many incidents which I experimented and outcome turned exactly as my intention.

Again things are going very smoothly, I am calm and happy. Yet I couldn't stop thinking "This can't be true, you are going to have problem let's see if this intention works again ha ha ha" in the back of my mind.

 

I couldn't stop thinking about it. Nothing happen and I was happy. Just when I forgot about this stupid experiment Boom!! I received a worst possible letter(I don't want to get in details.) a day before Christmas.

 

Best described my feeling at that moment was when Agent Sterling from movie Hannibal is opening a letter from Hannibal Lecter. Long story short I was crashed. Couldn't believe it. I couldn't sleep for few days. Here I am practicing the NOW getting dragged in to the PAST again.

 

I'm doing what ever I could do to control my mental state.

 

Reading the NOW book. Reading Krishnamurti day and night. Reading FAQ. I just couldn't get away from the mud. Sending Christmas email to TTP members wishing Merry Christmas at the same time hoping I could facilitate emergency TTP. After all it's Christmas and New Years, the whole world is conditioned to celebrate.

 

I became extremely desperate. Again my drinking stopped. Even with problem I did not crave alcohol. Instead though I started eating everything in site. I told the problem to my boss, then I was even more surprised of his reaction. His true color came out. It is not a nice color. However I was glad to see his true color early enough to avoid serious problems with him. All the sudden it became clear he was dragging me to his drama. I try to work things out but it is never the same. I'm wondering weather this drama happen to stop me from getting involved with him deeper.

 

I noticed I was recommending lots of turn around situation to my clients. Few of them started crushing down. I get an AHA. This is exactly like what's going on in my life. I met with friend and told him that I pick turnaround situation because I portrait my self as Rocky Balboa. I've being in far more worst situation than I am in right now, however I realize it is over and no more problems because it simply not worth it.


I've been doing well with my clients. Getting lots of orders and they are listening to what I'm saying. Boss is getting extremely jealous about everything that I do. Drama after Drama. Still I was desperate to have TTP so I send out reminders of our meeting one week before hand.

 

The result was no show after no show. I try to reschedule few days later and another no show. Now I am really at the bottom. I felt miserable. I downloaded drumming songs from lime wire and experimented with DIM process. I got in to forms a bit but it was nothing close.

 

One day I search the TTP site and for some reason reading this line.  Impatience depends on the belief in the existence of time. Next day I feel great about all my positions. Tremendous difference. I feel I am aligning my self with the flow for the first time.

 

I am watching Warren Buffet Interview on Google Video. Charlie Rose is interviewing Buffet's friend and he is telling Charlie how he made a mistake of life time not invested with Buffet in the 70's. $10,000 "I did not have the money, well I could have borrowed it" It could have been 600 million by now. I get a AHA about me missing the workshop. I hope you are scheduling another workshop.

Last night we had a great TTP session first one this year!. I am feeling great right now. I feel truly blessed to experience TTP. I thank you for your sharing. Our new member got in to excellent forms. Willingness was there. Snapshots process was excellent too. I am truly genuinely happy right now. My mother came to visit me early January as well. It was great experience. I truly enjoyed my mother's company first time in years. I wish I can show you my snapshot. Best to you and fellow tribesman. !


Sincerley,

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

 

If you lived on the bus

you'd be home by now.

 

 

Clip: http://www.toothpastefordinner.com/

012404/home-by-now.gif

Date: Mon, 29 Jan 2007

 

Wants it Wholesale

 

Is it possible to order the trading tribe book wholesale?

Yes.

 

The wholesale price is the same as the retail price.

 

To order, see the link to The Trading Tribe Book, above.

Mon, 29 Jan 2007

 

Wants to Raise Funds

(see below)


Dear Mr. Seykota:

After the Trading System Project section of your web page is done, the TTP organization might design and trade a system similar to your model one (high risk and high return) and attract capital in this manner:

Every January of each year, TTP might sale a predetermined number of Feathers.

A Feather is a $10,000 investment that is similar to a zero coupon bond and has a 10 years maturity but with no fixed interest rate other than market action. Therefore, the market will decide the average interest rate in those 10 years period.

TTP might specify who they will like to sell the feathers to on January of each year by setting a number of parameters. For example, to people sociably productive, or willing to become better individuals, etc.

TTP might be able to use the management fees earned to finance its activity in poor countries (Latin American) that in my opinion are those who need to learn TTP the most and on average do not have enough money to pay a workshop or a seminar.

I am not sure you will like this idea but at least I tried.

Thank you for sharing your idea. 

 

FAQ is an educational site intending to serve the Trading Tribe community. 

 

At this point, I have no plans to use it to raise or manage investment funds.

Sun, 28 Jan 2007

 

More on Brain Physiology


Ed,


Here is an excerpt from Wikipedia about the insula:

"The insula has increasingly become the focus of attention for its role in body representation and subjective emotional experience. In particular, Antonio Damasio has proposed that this region plays a role in mapping visceral states that are associated with emotional experience, giving rise to conscious feelings.

 

This is in essence a neurobiological formulation of the ideas of William James, who first proposed that subjective emotional experience (i.e. feelings) arise from our brain's interpretation of bodily states that are elicited by emotional events. This is an example of embodied cognition.


Functionally speaking, the insula is believed to process convergent information to produce an emotionally relevant context for sensory experience.

 

More specifically, the anterior insula is related more to olfactory, gustatory, vicero-autonomic, and limbic function , while the posterior insula is related more to auditory-somesthetic-skeletomotor function.

 

Functional imaging experiments have revealed that the insula has an important role in pain experience and the experience of a number of basic emotions, including anger, fear, disgust, happiness and sadness.

Functional imaging studies have also implicated the insula in conscious desires, such as food craving and drug craving. What is common to all of these emotional states is that they each change the body in some way and are associated with highly salient subjective qualities. The insula is well situated for the integration of information relating to bodily states into higher-order cognitive and emotional processes. The insula receives information from "homeostatic afferent" sensory pathways via the thalamus and sends output to a number of other limbic-related structures, such as the amygdala, the ventral striatum and the orbitofrontal cortex.

Recent research has shown that cigarette smokers who suffer damage to the insular cortex, from a stroke for instance, have their addiction to cigarettes practically eliminated. These individuals were found to be up to 136 times more likely to quit smoking after the brain damage, and reported behavior changes such as quitting smoking less than one day after the brain injury, that they did not smoke again after quitting, and that they found no urge to resume smoking since quitting. This suggests a significant role for the insular cortex in the neurological mechanisms underlying addiction to nicotine and other drugs, and would make this area of the brain a promising target for novel anti-addiction medications.
 

Thank you for the information.

 

 

 

Antonio and Hanna Damasio

 

find out how the brain works

 

by noticing how it doesn't work

when parts of it are missing.

 

Books:

Descartes Error

The Feeling of What Happens

Looking for Spinoza

 

 

Clip: http://www.usc.edu/schools/college/news/

2005january/damasios.html

Sun, 28 Jan 2007

 

Physiological Support for Rocks Process


Ed,


Here is the NY Times article that talks about insula as "a prune-sized region under the frontal lobes that is thought to register gut feelings"!!!!!


And the Rocks Process is a way to reprogram the gut feelings without surgery. I will bet that if we could do a clinical study we would find that that the Rocks creates changes in the insula.



Very exciting stuff.


 


In Clue to Addiction, Brain Injury Halts Smoking


By BENEDICT CAREY
Published: January 26, 2007


Scientists studying stroke patients are reporting today that an injury to a specific part of the brain, near the ear, can instantly and permanently break a smoking habit. People with the injury who stopped smoking found that their bodies, as one man put it, "forgot the urge to smoke."


The finding, which appears in the journal Science, is based on a small study. But experts say it is likely to alter the course of addiction research, pointing researchers toward new ideas for treatment.

While no one is suggesting brain injury as a solution for addiction, the finding suggests that therapies might focus on the insula, a prune-size region under the frontal lobes that is thought to register gut feelings and is apparently a critical part of the network that sustains addictive behavior.

Previous research on addicts focused on regions of the cortex involved in thinking and decision making. But while those regions are involved in maintaining habits, the new study suggests that they are not as central as the insula is.

The study did not examine dependence on alcohol, cocaine or other substances. Yet smoking is at least as hard to quit as any other habit, and it probably involves the same brain circuits, experts said. Most smokers who manage to quit do so only after repeated attempts, and the craving for cigarettes usually lasts for years, if not a lifetime.

"This is the first time we've shown anything like this, that damage to a specific brain area could remove the problem of addiction entirely," said Dr. Nora Volkow, director of the National Institute on Drug Abuse, which financed the study, along with the National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke. "It's absolutely mind-boggling."

Others cautioned that scientists still knew little about the widely distributed neural networks involved in sustaining habits.

"One has to be careful not to extrapolate too much based on brain injuries to what's going on in all addictive behavior, in healthy brains," said Dr. Martin Paulus, a psychiatric researcher at the University of California, San Diego, and the San Diego V.A. Medical Center. Still, Dr. Paulus said, the study "opens up a whole new way to think about addiction."

The researchers, from the University of Iowa and the University of Southern California, examined 32 former smokers, all of whom had suffered a brain injury. The men and women were lucid enough to answer a battery of questions about their habits, and to rate how hard it was to quit and the strength of their subsequent urges to smoke.

They all had smoked at least five cigarettes a day for two years or more, and 16 of them said they had quit with ease, losing their cravings entirely.

The researchers performed M.R.I. scans on all of the patients' brains to specify the location and extent of each injury.

They found that the 16 who had quit easily were far more likely to have an injury to their insula than to any other area. The researchers found no association between a diminished urge to smoke and injuries to other regions of the brain, including tissue surrounding the insula.

"There's a whole neural circuit critical to maintaining addiction, but if you knock out this one area, it appears to wipe out the behavior," said Dr. Antoine Bechara, a senior author of the new paper, who is a neuroscientist at the Brain and Creativity Institute at U.S.C. His co-authors were Dr. Hanna Damasio, also of U.S.C., and Nasir Naqvi and David Rudrauf of the University of Iowa.

The patients' desire to eat, by contrast, was intact. This suggests, the authors wrote, that the insula is critical for behaviors whose bodily effects become pleasurable because they are learned, like cigarette smoking.

The insula, for years a wallflower of brain anatomy, has emerged as a region of interest based in part on recent work by Dr. Antonio Damasio, a neurologist and director of the Brain and Creativity Institute.

 

The insula has widely distributed connections, both in the thinking cortex above, and down below in subcortical areas, like the brain stem, that maintain heart rate, blood pressure and body temperature, the body's primal survival systems.

Based on his studies and others', Dr. Damasio argues that the insula, in effect, maps these signals from the body's physical plant, and integrates them so the conscious brain can interpret them as a coherent emotion.

The system works from the bottom up. First, the body senses cues in the outside world, and responds. The heart rate might elevate at the sight of a stranger's angry face, for example; other muscles might relax in response to a pleasant whiff of smoke.

All of this happens instantaneously and unconsciously, Dr. Damasio said — until the insula integrates the information and makes it readable to the conscious regions of the brain.

"In a sense it's not surprising that the insula is an important part of this circuit maintaining addiction, because we realized some years ago that it was going to be a critical platform for emotions," Dr. Damasio said in a telephone interview. "It is on this platform that we first anticipate pain and pleasure, not just smoking but eating chocolate, drinking a glass of wine, all of it."

This explains why cravings are so physical, and so hard to shake, he said: they have taken hold in the visceral reaches of the body well before they are even conscious.

Other researchers have found that the insula is activated in unpleasant circumstances, like a bad smell or the anticipation of a painful shock, or even in shoppers when they see a price that seems too high. Damage to the insula is associated with slight impairment of some social function.

While antismoking treatments based on the new findings are still a long way off, the authors suggest that therapies that replicate some of the physical sensations of the habit, like inhalers, could be useful.

And at least two previous studies suggest that people can reduce the sensation of pain by learning to modulate the activity in an area of their brain.

In experiments, healthy volunteers watched real-time M.R.I. images of a cortical region linked strongly to pain sensation and learned to moderate that neural activity, reducing the pain they felt from a heated instrument pressed to their palms. The same kind of technique could be tried with addicts watching images of their insulas.

"The question is, Can you learn to deactivate the insula?" Dr. Volkow said. "Now, everybody's going to be looking at the insula."

Thank you for the heads-up.

 

 

 

Insula

 

1.Gyri breves insulae
2.Gyri longi insulae
3.Limen insulae
4.Sulcus centralis insulae
5.Sulcus circularis insulae
 

 

Clip:

http://www.univie.ac.at/anatomie2/plastinatedbrain/

surfaceanatomy/surface-insula-text.html

Sun, 28 Jan 2007

 

C++

Dear Mr. Seykota,

I think this is helpful for someone who wants to learn C++

http://www.cee.hw.ac.uk/

~pjbk/pathways/cpp1/node2.html

OK. 

 

Programmers seem to be migrating to C#.

Sun, 28 Jan 2007

 

Update Austin, TX TTID

Hi Ed,

Please find attached the updated TTID for the Austin, TX Tribe.

I've taken the liberty of replacing my name and email address with bitmaps of same. Google now displays Word docs in HTML format (just like it does for PDFs), and I'm wondering if my email address is being "scraped," since the number of "stock tout" spam emails I receive has increased dramatically in the past few months.

OK.

Sat, 27 Jan 2007


Guess What This Thing Is







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This is a 5 Meg Hard Disk in 1956.

In September 1956

IBM launches the 305 RAMAC,

the first computer

with a hard disk drive (HDD).

The HDD weighs over a ton

and stores 5MB of data.
 

I think it's an endorsement for the free enterprise system.

 

 

Memory Stick

 

Today a 4 GB memory stick

holds about a thousand times

as much data

as the drive on the left.

 

 

Clip: http://www.connox.de/media/

stelton/USB-Memory-Stick.jpg

Fri, 26 Jan 2007

 

Resistance to Feeling Close
 

Dear Ed,


Just finished the last FAQs. They are very moving. You are creating a wonderful support system / technology for people to get clear about their issues. I am presently feeling and learning about my own resistance to intimacy ... why I shut down when I feel close to a man.

Shutting down is one of the most popular methods for medicating sadness.

 

 

 

Kissing

 

can be more difficult

 

than fighting.

 

Clip: http://www.sachinternational.com/

courses/international/relationships.htm

Fri, 26 Jan 2007

 

Rocks Process Review


Ed,


Thank you for supporting me in my process. I feel that I have overcome a significant barrier in my life, I am much more in tune with my feelings now and have a taken a giant step towards being OK with my feelings. I think I am carrying a “shut down” rock, one passed to me by my father. The rock allows me to handle difficult situations by not feeling my feelings. This may the root of some of my issues. Have you encountered a similar “shut down” rock in your other clients?

I hope you are well and look forward to seeing you soon.



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I approached the Tribe to help my address my issue with anger and how I handle situations in which I am asked to do something I do not agree with or do no want to do. I am also at Tribe as a first step to becoming more comfortable with my feelings. I have always put walls up around myself and jam feelings away so as to have to deal with them. My not feeling sadness or fear or anxiety, re-manifests itself in anger which is damaging to my relationships.

Ed begins by asking me why I am at Tribe. I respond by saying that I am quick to anger over seemingly simple to stupid things. His response is that this is normal and healthy so he asks “What is the problem” Upon further examination, I discover that my anger stems from how I handle situations I which I am asked to do something I do not want to. Ed helps me to see that my gut reaction is to “comply and resent”. My compliance, with no expression of feeling or no negotiation lead to a lingering resentment that is tucked away and not dealt with. This is my “beach ball held under water”. I can shove it down in the short term but it will always resurface and resurface much more forcefully later. This coping mechanism offers no resources to express how I feel; I simply shut down and in turn, shut the other person down … Unhealthy to say the least.

As we begin to review my life, we discover that I was handed my “comply and resent” rock in my childhood. I conclude it was my father who provided me a rock as a way to deal with my mother. My use of this rock is re-iterated throughout my life with the same negative results; my feeling of anger and disruption in my relationships.

We role the earliest scene I can remember using the rock. It involves my mother asking me to clean my room when I feel it is already clean and do not want to “do it again” I comply with her request but harbor anger and resentment towards her.

The Tribe then provides me with a list of new resources as to how I could better handle the situation. I am given a new rock into which I place my new resources.

 

These new resources include:

Tell your feelings and explain your position
Ask her feelings
Smile
Express the anger instead of swallowing it
Negotiate
Feelings are OK
Ask for help
Invoke an authority
Breathe and be open
Use humor
Ask for clarification
Use the look and comply
Run away
Stay awake and notice feelings
Ignore the request
Say No

I then role play the situation again, this time, I have no rock, old or new. I have to simply sit there and take the heat, anger and yelling from my mother. This is intended to help me be OK with my feelings when people are mad at me.

We role play one more time, this time, I use the resources of my new rock. By using the resources offered by the Tribe, the outcome is much more positive.

I then go on to review all of the times I can remember in my life when I used my “comply and resent” rock. I utilize the new rock to better handle the situations.

While my use of these resources is not yet “automatic” I am now immediately aware of these situations as they occur. I have used the resources offered by the Tribe to navigate these situations towards more successful outcomes. I notice that I am more aware of my feelings and I express them more easily.

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

Compliance and resentment are popular ways to medicate various forms of sadness.

 

Your resource list contains healthy alternatives.

 

 

 

Comply

 

 

 

Resent

 

 

Clips:

http://www.familyrightsassociation.com/

educate/borg/queencps.gif

http://www3.sympatico.ca/jim.rowe2/p12-7.htm

Fri, 26 Jan 2007

 

Taking Profits

see Taking Profit on the Way Up


Ed,

On 4 Jan 2007 Ed Says

What do you do when you catch a trend? You ride that sucker to the end.

On 1 May 2006 Ed Says:

Sometimes the King-Kong Feeling is a signal to lighten up.

Since you consider taking profits on the way up a counter-trend strategy, I wonder if you also consider your butcher, baker, and candlestick maker rule a counter-trend strategy.

Perhaps I should take my desire for consistency to my tribe as an entry point.

Right now the sale of half of the position at 32.80 looks prescient. Perhaps, by selling only half on the way up I get to feel the feeling of selling too soon and the feeling of selling too late.

Lightening up in response to your feelings might be less of a counter-trend strategy than a counter-risk-strategy.

 

 

 

Some Long-Term Trend Followers

 

consider copper

 

is still in an up-trend.

 

25 Jan 2007

 

Feelings About Futures


Ed,

When and if you have a moment before your tribe meeting I wish to talk to you more about my feeling ... I'd just like to flush it out a little more. My sense is that the commodities are about to rally and stocks are about to crash. My hunch is that we are about to see a massive shift back into commodities and it is going to be huge.
 

You might consider keeping a diary of these feelings as they appear, and to correlate them with the peregrinations of the market.

Thu, 25 Jan 2007

 

Wants Instructions

 

Can you be more specific about how to do the Rocks process?

 

Your questions about the Rocks Process seem to indicate you are still holding the process intellectually.

You might consider getting up on the hot seat and going through the process a few times.

 

 

 

Thinking About Riding a Bicycle


and defining the important points
about riding a bicycle
is different from

getting up on the seat
and riding a bicycle.

If you do not know

how to ride a bicycle
you might think that

an important-ideas-riding-plan
might be the starting point.

Think about yourself learning

how to ride a bicycle
and think about teaching children

how to ride a bicycle
and recall the feelings

about all these kinds of learnings
and then think about how to use

an important-ideas-riding-plan.



Clip: http://www.johnpitre.com/JP/GOBsplash.htm

Thu, 25 Jan 2007

 

Signal to Noise Ratio


Dear Ed,

This is regarding your post in the April 27-30, 2003FAQ:

"If it's just as likely for a stock to double as fall to half, then the signal to noise ratio is initially 100% better for the long side."

My questions:


What do you mean by Signal?

What do you mean by Noise?

Thanks and Regards.

Signal means the overall length of the price move. 

 

Noise means the size of the reactions.

 

Engineers use signal-to-noise ratios to design clean-sounding stereo equipment, accurate cameras, etc.

 

 

 

Signal-To-Noise Ratio

 

Clip: http://www.clarkvision.com/imagedetail/

digital.signal.to.noise/

Wed, 24 Jan 2007

 

More Rock Questions

Hi Ed,

The more I read about the Rock Process, the more impressive I find! It surely rocks - the brilliant idea of merging "back-testing" to TTP so as to find out what works, and then reprogram ourselves to follow just that - that makes perfect sense to me and is totally awesome!

I have several more questions/comments:

1) In role-playing to recreate the scenario where the subject first received the rock, are there cases where the cultural background may be a limitation? By that I mean, for a non native English-speaker, there may be some cultural values that holds special meaning to him and others may not easily follow.

Say for example, a subject receives a rock during a very bitter argument in his native language with his parents. If there are words that have no equivalent in English, but it brings up extremely strongfeelings specifically to the subject, then the role player may have difficulty understanding the word, or pronouncing the word correctly.


And if the role play is done in English, it may make the subject's conscious mind very alert and active in processing and translating the information, thus impeding the process. No?

2) How does one role-play some traumatic events, like witnessing the death of a loved one? Or the near-death feeling of drowning? And how to draw the line of what's appropriate to role-play, like sexual abuse? Or even something less offensive, such as heart pounding crazily when trying to kiss a girl?

3) It seems "giving advice" (to come up with a resource list) is a part of the Rock Process even though in the 11/9/06 document you specifically say "We don't give advice"? In traditional TTP, we refrain from advising the sender as it seems to bring up the conscious mind and derail the process. However, it seems that part of the Rock Process is conferencing with the messenger and wise people to get advice in the form of a resource list, am I misunderstanding it?

4) It seems that an experienced tribe is CRUCIAL to come up with a resource list. If among them is a Spartan football coach or a military officer who is not too familiar with TTP, they may give advice such as "You should never cry but fight back strong no matter what." While the subject can choose to accept the advice or not, it seems that such advice may trigger the subject's conscious mind and the judgment of others invalidating his feelings.

5) DIM is usually fruitless with TTP. Do you think DIM can work with Rock though? For here we are not trying to experience the very feelings we have been unwilling to experience for years, but rather just rationally letting our wiser and older self to deliver a better rock for the young self, and then test the new rock with other similar scenarios.

That's it for now. Thank you very much for introducing the Rock Process.

See Rocks Process, below.

Wed, 24 Jan 2007

 

Resource Rock #2
(See below)

Speaking from my own recent experience, I had no
clue what the medicine Rock was until I did the Rocks
process, and therefore no way to list new resources,
beforehand.

But I think we can start compiling various templates.
For instance, where childhood abuse is an issue, we
know that the following are good resources:

- enlist the help of an older relative, or neighbor
- call child protective services

And the following apply universally:

- acknowledge your feelings
- it's OK to share your feelings
- it's OK to ask for help

Thank you for sharing your experience.

Wed, 24 Jan 2007


Resource Rock


I have been thinking about the resource rock that replaces the medicine rock. I believe that the resources that go into the new rock could be thought about and listed outside of the process. Then once the process begins this list could be the starting point and the person on the hot seat can see if these resources are ones that they would still like to be on the list.


Your thoughts?

I think your question answers itself once you participate in the Rocks Process.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006

 

Bernoulli



Do you agree or disagree with this site's discussion and experiment?

 

 

The Bernoulli principle says that

this slower moving air

will appear to the wing

to have a higher pressure

that faster moving air.


Clip and text: http://sci-toys.com/scitoys/scitoys/

aero/aero.html#bernoulli

I consider the statement to be abusive of both the Bernoulli Principle and the English language.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Rocks Process

Hi Ed,

As I'm going through the Rock articles, one thing that really stands out is the identification of when one first receives the Rock. It just doesn't seem possible to me.

 

Even in TTP, the sender doesn't necessarily get a flashback every time. And even if there is a flashback, it isn't necessarily the "first time" that he receives the rock.

But that seems to be the key. It seems that we need to know a lot about the sender, or he himself needs to be very observant about his own behavior to connect the dots and draw a pattern so as to arrive at an appropriate rock. It also sounds a lot of psycho-analysis. I wonder how you can do it so effectively with strangers.

Overall, it does sound like a very exciting process. I look forward to experiencing it myself, and maybe then I can understand. After all, it was also very difficult when I first learned TTP only through your website without really seeing how it works.

Thanks.

People seem to get the hang of the Rocks Process by seeing it in action and by practicing it.

 

 

 

Riding a Bicycle

is like TTP.

 

It's easier to learn how to do it

when you can watch someone else

who knows how.

 

 

Clip: http://www.iste.uni-stuttgart.de/ps/

Zhang/bohan.bicycle.jpg 

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Constant Reminder

Ed,

I'm glad your in my life as a constant reminder of who I can be, and what I can do, when I am willing to take action, and stop making excuses.

Thanks,

How about we remind each other.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Report on our Last Tribe Meeting

Dear Ed,

As I have been looking for a place to hold tribe meetings, a trader friend who runs his own fund suddenly inquires about TTP, and invites me to hold a meeting at his office with his traders.

 

At about the same time I also get several inquiries to join our local tribe, so I invite these new comers to our meeting as well. I feel very excited that it must be my intention to have tribe meetings manifesting as results. Altogether we have eight new comers to TTP (plus myself) in the meeting.

I go through the same exercises as in the Trading Tribe book (and what we go through in the Jan 2006 Workshop) about process managing, sending and receiving, including the "Tell me what you are thinking" and "I wonder how you are feeling" exercises.

Then comes the hot seat. At check-in, everyone sounds very curious about what's going to happen, as none of them have prior hot seat experience. I ask for volunteers, and finally get one. When I ask about his trading and etc., he expresses some feelings related to his losses in recent months.

I encourage him to experience his feelings, cheering for him loudly, ask him to crank up the feelings and do more of his (rocking back and forth, shaking heads ...).

 

Unfortunately, I am about the only person. I thought receiving would be easy to pick up - we cheer for our favorite football team without anyone instructing us how to cheer - yet I forget that when I first started TTP I also wasn't comfortable in receiving, not to mention the awkwardness in encouraging a person to experience a feeling that he obviously dislikes.

So without a field of acknowledgment and support, I find it difficult. The sender gets close several times to a freezing point, but just lack the extra push to get through the hump. I keep encouraging, yet deep inside, I also feel a little discouraged because I can sense that the receivers are getting bored and not into the process at all. They become observers and not participants, and there is little support.

I commit to the process. My intention is to do everything I can to help the sender. So it takes about 45 minutes to an hour, and the sender finally comes out and reports some knotty feelings from some childhood events. Interestingly, he expresses that it feels like 15 minutes for him on the hot seat.

I've learned a lot too. I learn that the importance of willingness, not only on the sender, but also the receivers. I now appreciate fully the importance of a strong supportive field of acknowledgment. I learn that TTP (and many other things in life) is what you make of it: if you indulge yourself in it, get into the Process, hours go by and it feels like minutes. If you remain a distant observer, minutes go by and it feels like seconds. I recall how Einstein explains Relativity, "When a man sits with a pretty girl for an hour it seems like a minute. But let him sit on a hot stove for a minute and its longer than any hour. That's relativity."

Later, I receive an email from the sender who once again thank me about the experience (I tell him, "Thank Ed instead.")

 

My trader friend who invites me to do the TTP says he would want to try it again, but he prefers to be only with other traders in his fund.

 

He feels otherwise it is time wasted to cheering some stranger for an hour when he could have something else better to do. I acknowledge his concerns, but I feel that is against what it means to be a Tribe, and so I can only keep searching for another location to host regular meetings.

I also wonder about my own intention. I'd love to have regular TTP meetings, yet the result is indicating otherwise. I wish I can find the positive intention of this "want-to-have-TTP-but-cannot" feelings on the hot seat too.

 

It seems I must really enjoy this feeling then even though consciously and logically I am crying out loud NO WAY. I think this is truly a catch-22 for if I can have regular TTP then I wouldn't have the feeling, right? Ha ha, as I re-read the last paragraph, it even sounds like I am a TTP addict :-)

Thanks.

Before you accept invitations to present TTP to a group, you might consider having all the participants read this web-site and sign up individually.

 

 

Doing TTP Without an Invitation

 

is like pulling teeth.

 

 

Clip: http://www.naturealmanac.com/

archive/pulling_teeth/tooth_tn.jpg

 

 

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Casual Models
 

Dear Mr. Seykota,

Can you please explain a little about Casual Models so we can understand the exchange when reading this new method in FAQ.

Thank you very much.

See the Glossary link, above.

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Workshop Feedback


Ed,


I haven't mailed before now because I wanted to reflect on what I experienced and saw at The Workshop.

Both you and The s--- seeking missile are extraordinary people. Just to be in your company is awe inspiring.

The effect that you have on other human beings is a sight to behold, you are a very gifted man.

When I arrived home I was greeted by my wife and kids. My kids jumped all over me and my wife got me a cocktail.


When the kids went to bed my wife jumped all over me. It was good to be missed !


In this part of my life I am very fortunate.

For a day or two I did have a feeling that something was missing. This soon seemed to pass.

Attending the workshop has given me a much better idea of what is possible with TTP if you are committed.

I now must systemize in my trading, dig deeply to find my issues and commit to my fellow tribe members, family and friends to the best of my ability. [possibly not in that order]

I look forward to spending some more time with you and the SSM, God willing, in the not too distant now !

Kind regards
 

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

 

 

 

Lovers Who Like to Jump

 

can do it on a bungee.

 

 

Clip: [Attribution absent, by site manager request, March 27, 2014]

Tue, 23 Jan 2007

 

Workshop Feedback - Life Changing


I notice that since the workshop, largely all of my relationships have changed.

Much relationship pressure has been released as I stay in tune with how I feel and instinctively try to support people for who they are.

I also notice that I feel quite disoriented since the rocks process. I seem to be re-programming some of my responses. My preferences are changing or perhaps some of the medication is no longer necessary. (Gym Rat / Vegatarian >> Eat whatever I want / do whatever I want). Oddly enough (and most interesting to me), I don’t feel any form of the guilt / longing that kept me in the gym or to my strict diet. I mainly just feel happy to be alive and am enjoying the process.

Workshop felt like snapshot of human connection. That is a wonderful feeling.

I also am driving my life from the emotional control panel and going with flow perspective (few crashes). The emotional control panel seems to be more in tune with me than my CM ever was.

I also notice that accepting all of my feelings equates with accepting my process and makes me feel peaceful. It’s almost like the control isn’t necessary.

I don’t quite understand this as it relates to my snapshot as I want to grab the snapshot.

Yes there are things standing in between that I don’t want to feel. I have a lot of tribe work.

The workshop was a life changing event Ed.

Thanks

Thank you for sharing your process.

 

I, Former Gym Rat

hereby declare to lose the guilt

and to eat whatever I want

and to do whatever I want.

 

Clip: http://www.ironbodies.com/modules/figurines/