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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Copy Cats
I gott 'em red handed!
I stumbled across a blog the other day who “copied and pasted”
some of
your content and seem to be using it for their benefits!
I asked where they got the content from and they ended up taking
it off!
Figured I would let you know..I spend a lot of time on the web
and like to
help out other reputable sites!
Is your content in house? |
Thank you for the information.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Site
Ed,
Are you still operating the site?
Thanks, |
Yes. |
Tuesday,
September 14, 2010
Magazine Cover Indicator
Ed
When magazine covers get pretty emotional, get out of the
position. There's nothing else in the magazine that works very
well, but the covers are pretty good. This is not an indictment
of the magazine people, it's just that at the end of a big move
there is a communal psychological reaction which shows up on the
covers of magazines. - Ed Seykota
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Thank you for the cover. I don't recall saying those exact
words - the quote doesn't fit my grammar patterns. I
wonder if you can send me your source on it.
You might consider if you really feel the cover is emotional. |
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Hiring More Programmers
Dear Ed,
I hope you are enjoying life in Texas.
Following your previous comments about my "system" being
different to my system, I have been busy developing a fully
automated robotic platform in VB.net 2010.
I have two highly competent programmers translating my ideas
into code. Its a huge project, but slowly it is all coming
together. The old simulation unit which we made in 2004 has been
revamped and now features one of your ideas which uses the
"worst price of the day" ( or a distance in-between it and the
intended trade level) to compute historical trade entries.
We have called this slippage factor, and when set to 100% it
uses the worst price of the day, when set to 0% it uses the
actual stop price, and most testing is done with the 100%
slippage setting. The system is still making great profits in
testing.
The actual trading signals however have not been changed as they
work very well just as they are.
I was very annoyed by your comments initially, but after many
hours of thought I realised you were right to say on Tuesday
June 23rd 2009
"My sense of your "system" is
that it is largely subjective and depends heavily on having you
in the loop as an active element.
Your actual trading system
comprises your mathematical formulas and your own emotional
influences.
In this regard, you might
consider finding a way to qualify the emotional component of
your system."
The next algorithmic problem facing me is that there are over
2000 active instruments available to trade via my brokers, and I
wish to trade no more than 100 at any given moment. The old
filtering system which you saw in my video clip did not measure
system performance, but ranked stocks with a score based on 15
different filters which attempted to find those best suited to
my system.
The current ideas are to create 2000 sub accounts ( one per
instrument ) give each instrument the same capital, and simulate
through the first few months or years to find the best "system
instruments" by way of how much profit they made, or use the MAR
of the equity line. I recall in previous tests that the Kelly
formula has many shortcomings (when used as a performance
filter), as two systems with a good Kelly of 0.25 risk fraction
can produce wildly different profits due to the actual frequency
of the model or the magnitude of the swings. So the Kelly is a
not going to be used as a performance filter.
The ideal objective is to end up with a portfolio of the 100
best system instruments from the 2000 available, or at least to
have most of the best performers being traded live, while the
laggards are monitored in the background. Later I have a plan to
construct a league table so I can see how much each instrument
changes its position in the league, it will be good news if the
relative positions don't swing much.
Further complexities arise with cutting out instruments which
started off well, then get worse, and vice versa. I did consider
trading all 2000 instruments and the purging the weak performers
(using the cash to add to the winners), but this involves
cutting deal size down to tiny levels, and creates nightmares in
accounting of all positions.
One huge bonus that came to light by having a sub account for
each instrument is that the application of the Kelly fraction
can be done without any divisions, as before I was using 0.25 /
Number of positions, which was never optimal, and always K x N
produced the best result in simulations, but this lead to huge
leverage and too much heat. Furthermore the risk fraction would
always get smaller as the stops were moved, meaning more
positions would need to be added to keep the risk percent
correct. Eventually the gearing would be too high and no
solution for this was ever found.
Finding the huge outlier winners is a big part of my idea for
this process, as there were some massive winners in testing and
missing out on such moves would be detrimental to results.
After this project is completed you will again be offered a
chance to add funds and benefit from it. When it is done, I will
be "removed from the loop" completely so the drawdowns will be
bigger, but profits will be bigger too.
Before you reply "You may want to take this to tribe"...I have
raised this issue during tribe meetings, but have not yet
figured out the correct algorithm for this purpose. The answer
that popped into my brain was to ask Ed.
If you can point me in the right direction, I would appreciate
it very much.
Regards |
I wonder if you are actually trading yet. You might
consider taking our feelings about <trading> to Tribe.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Zombies
Hi Ed,
While I read the FAQs reguarding TTP vs Zombie drugs and also
your Radial Momentum theory for explaination of lift this quote
comes to mind...
"All truth goes through three steps: First it is ridiculed;
Second, it is violently opposed; Finally, it is accepted as
self-evident." -- Authur Schopenhauer, German philosopher
Thank you for your continuous persuit in unveiling the truth and
teaching me to live in the now. |
OK. |
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
TTP Drives a Person to Drink
Dear Ed,
I thank you very much for the conversation today, where we talk
about a person not being able to handle the feelings surging
after a hotseat and getting drunk to suppress them.
Members of my Tribe know how to contact me if they need to after
a hotseat. At the end of an individual TTP session on a
one-to-one basis I always inform the person on the hotseat that
he/she can feel very emotional or “moved” for a couple of days,
and that they can call me 24/7 if they consider it necessary.
I think that this precaution can be useful to prevent people
from starting drama in order to act their feelings out.
Best regards, |
You can also avoid this situation by only working with people
who understand the work and who are willing to work. |
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Monday, September 13, 2010
Big Macs and Grieving
Ed,
Ed asks if there is anyone who would like
to work. I think
about several “patterns” I notice in my life over the previous
few weeks and the associated feelings.
I bring this information to tribe.
My Fiancee’ comes along with me to do some shopping.
On our way she notices a “burger”
establishment and mentions she would like to get a penny
pounder(or whatever they are called).
I teasingly ask if she is not aware of what is in the
miniscule penny pounder.
I give her an ample supply of all the sordid facts.
It is definitely a cranial endeavor I undertake…I don’t
ask her feelings.
As I drive on by the establishment I tease
her with “you really don’t want that, do you?”…and drive on by.
We find shopping not far from there and another
McFondle’s is spotted…we go through the same dialogue.
She has felt the elation, the desire and the wanting need
of the penny pounder coursing through her veins.
I smugly offer a bright sounding argument with lots of
facts about why we don’t need to stop and drive on by.
She goes from elation to despair, dejection
and penny pounder withdrawal all in the snap of a finger.
I say nothing but I have this vision of my childhood and
the feelings. A
pattern emerges in my mind of how I felt when I am in this game
and that…I play this game on myself.
I think about this as I drive and I ask my Fiancee’ how
she feels…she feels frustrated.
I describe the pattern from my childhood when my father
would ask if I wanted something, like a toy or to stop and eat
and would take me through the same emotional rollercoaster.
I recall when I was very young my father
would let me drive the truck.
Sometimes he would ask me if I wanted to drive and get me
very excited about the opportunity and his favorite phrase is
“sure, I will let you drive, drive your nose up my butt”.
I was 4-5 years old.
It is hard to make sense of that phrase as a young child.
I recall some other memories when I am
young specifically that any time I even felt like throwing up I
was made to bend over and have a phenergan suppository inserted.
I feel violated.
Ed describes this as essentially the same feeling as
being raped in the mind of the child.
Ed says “so what”, that is what I do.
That is how I run my life.
He asks for me to get into the feeling.
The feeling of being in control and using
that control to manipulate her feelings…then to crush those
feelings. I get into
the feeling and the form.
The tribe encourages me and I feel them cheering me on.
I get to a fervent intensity in the form and Ed says to
freeze it, then to concentrate the feeling.
Ed asks what I recall…a memory.
A few jagged memories flow through my mind.
I pause to catch my breath and I recall a situation with
my father when I am a teenager.
I am at the barn with my father and he is hooking up the
bushhog to the tractor.
I am 13 or so.
I am observing and he angrily says “are you just gonna
stand there with your finger up your butt?”…I feel numb and in a
state of shock.
We do a role play of the process and I feel
the feeling as I participate in the role play.
I have my hand over my abdominal area and Ed asks me what
I feel after the role play.
I describe I feel like I have been hit in the
stomach…lost my breath.
He asks me to get into the feeling in my
midsection. I feel
the feeling intensely of the impact of his words and the feeling
of losing my breath.
The tribe encourages me to get into the form.
I feel the release of everything and get into the form
completely. At the
climax I hear Ed say to freeze it, then concentrate it.
He asks if I recall something after this experience.
I immediately am 8 years old at my
grandmothers home to visit.
I play with my cousins.
Someone calls for me to come around to the front of the
house. A truck is in
the driveway with the tailgate down.
As I approach I notice a form lying on the tailgate.
As I get closer I see that it is my dog, “blackie”.
She is hit by a car and is covered with blood.
Her body is mangled.
I have this dog from when I am 4 maybe.
I feel a flood of grief and emotion immediately and begin
to sob uncontrollably.
I am in shock at the scene and go to my knees with my
hands over my face.
I am sobbing uncontrollably and I recall my grandmother’s arm
grabbing me up angrily with words of “stop that crying”, “your
too old for this”.
She shakes me till I stop crying and dry my
tears. I shut down
in that moment. It
is not ok to feel this grief…this pain.
I recall becoming a zombie as my dog is buried in the
garden as I watch in the pouring rain.
“Blackie” was my “field
of affirmation” as another tribe member puts it.
She seemed to follow me wherever I went with a wagging
tail.
The tribe is polled for new
resources…sharing my feelings with my grandmother and asking her
to share her feelings.
The tribe puts a role play together.
I walk into the room as a tribe member is asking if this
is anyone’s dog. I
feel I am immediately 8 years old and reliving this experience.
I begin sobbing uncontrollably and feel the
grief and pain of losing a good friend.
I immediately go to the floor in sobs.
I feel my grandmother grabbing me and yanking me
up…yelling angry words to stop my crying.
I tell her how much pain I feel about my dog.
I describe how much it hurts to lose a friend.
Her anger continues.
I continue to share my feelings of the pain and grief.
I look into her eyes and ask her if it is ok if I feel my
feelings. Eventually
as I share my feelings and look into her eyes she softens.
I see the pain she carries…she holds her grief inside her
whole life. I feel
sadness for her and the pain she endures.
We replay the role play several times.
Each time I feel the grief of losing my friend as it is
happening now. I
feel resolution as I go through the process.
We replay the role play and I ask her how she feels.
She describes her feelings and I ask her to share more
and more. Her fear
of dying and other feelings she feels about my feelings.
We replay the role play again using both
resources and I feel very comfortable maintaining intimacy in
the situation and it being ok to feel the grief and sadness of
the moment.
I feel the process addresses a critical
juncture in my life…a moment in time that I shut down and decide
I cannot feel grief and sadness.
I notice after the meeting and following days I feel “out
of sorts” and sometimes a little dizzy.
I notice also other suppressed feelings of
grief and sadness surface and I am willing to let the tears
flow. Thank you to
my tribe members for their invaluable support and encouragement.
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Thank
you for sharing your process.
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Every Meal
is an opportunity to connect. |
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Sunday, September 12, 2010
Magazine Covers
Hi Ed,
Belated happy birthday wishes to you and a gift of magazine
covers.
June 13, 2005
September 6, 2010
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Thank
you for the clips.
According to this indicator, we might be nearing the lows on
real estate prices. |
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I am
planning to host a Workshop later this year in Austin, TX.
Watch this site for more details. |
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Thank
you for sharing your process.
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Freezing Up
Ed,
with acquaintances and friends i consider myself
to be a person with pretty good "people skills".
there i can make everyone laugh, people seem to
like me and i can have a good time with them.
sometimes though, especially when there are many
persons around that i don't know well, it feels
like i have a problem to convey my normal,
friendly personality. i have a tendency to
"freeze up", which means i don't talk much and i
start to feel like i am "out of sync" with the
group, which means i don't find things funny the
group finds funny. i also then feel tempted to
take a position contrary to group opinion on
every
conversation topic.
when i have to do teamwork with many discussions
with other people, it's not very nice when these
feelings come up. it feels like people then
start to ignore my comments on everything. for
example, if i comment on a subject, that
something may be the solution to something, it
gets ignored. half an hour later, another
participant in the discussion says the exact
same thing and gets the appreciation. if i point
out that i said the exact same thing it seems
like nobody wants to remember. in social
situations it's similar. people tend to ignore
me and want to invalidate my comments. sometimes
it almost feels like a conspiration of the whole
group to invalidate my comments and laugh about
it.
i feel also very invalidated by this and start
feeling like a social outcast when this happens.
even though, like i said before, most of the
time i consider myself to be a person with
good people skills. i want to stop these
situations from happening. i wonder if you have
some hints for me.
sincerely,
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Thank
you for sharing your process.
You might consider taking your feelings about <freezing up> and
<avoiding Capital letters> to Tribe. |
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TTP
is a set of methods and tools to help people gain more freedom
of expression. The work continues to evolve. I have
no particular recommendations on how to engineer the details of
the processes.
You might consider taking your feelings about <doing it right>
to Tribe. |
Dear Ed & Fellow
Tribe Members,
I am now a member of
the [City] Trading Tribe for a few months and I
would like to share a recent experience with you
all.
A little
Background:
I tend to be an
analyzer. I like to explain situations in
detail (even to myself) and find myself doing
this during tribe meetings. This often happens
during my Hot-Seat. Our tribe chief and
receivers notice this and encourage me to speak
less and feel/experience more. I find this
difficult at times and often wonder if I am
"doing this right". I then review the process
again and recall that tribe members do not need
to necessarily reveal sensitive/personal
information.
A
breakthrough?
During our last
meeting I pick a personal topic for my
Hot-Seat. I decide that instead of explaining
the situation, I mention only that it has to do
with my relationship with my wife and that there
is something about which I am unhappy. I tell
the Chief that in order to avoid talking too
much I would like to just feel this and develop
forms. During my hot-seat I begin to almost
immediately feel a mixture of anger and
sadness. I am surprised by how quickly and
decisively I feel my own emotions. I get a
clear sense that doing it this way helps me
recognize my own feelings better. I feel I have
a mini-aha, but do not make much of it [yet].
But the real impact comes later. In the coming
weeks I notice a definite change in my behavior
and state of mind. First I begin to notice that
in having recognized the emotions I am now about
to more readily express them to my wife. I am
more assertive. I also notice that I am finding
more healthy outlets for my needs /
dissatisfaction; instead of using unhealthy
ways to find relief I now more readily express
them to my wife and this aspect of our
relationship gets better.
It has now been
about a month and I am happy to report that the
positive difference is noticeable in my
marriage. I intend to continue to apply this to
other areas of my life.
Thank you for your
support!
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Thank
you for sharing your process. |
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Thursday, September 9, 2010
Tribe Report - Learning to Share Feelings
Dear Ed,
At the
Austin Tribe one tribe member explores
issues with relationships. The process
manager and the tribe work with him as he
links events together and recognizes the
pattern that is playing out in his life. He
uses the resources of saying how he feels
and asking the other person how they feel.
Tribe members assist in the role playing,
and he applies the new resources to the
events happening in his life now. (It’s all
happening now.) And he gets different
results. All the members of the tribe can
relate to various parts of his experiences.
There seems to be a universal connection to
things that are most personal. What is most
personal appears to be most universal. I and
other members of the tribe, perhaps all
members of the tribe, feel his sadness and
his joy as he goes through his process.
During checkout, the tribe members express
how they connect with the tribe member’s
processes. I am thankful for the tribe
member’s willingness to share his process.
Another
tribe member takes the hot seat. His entry
point is the schooling and education of his
children. It’s soon discovered that his real
issue is simply feeling.
I’m
becoming increasingly convinced that life is
just one big entry point.
The process
manager, with the support of the tribe,
works with him, and he begins to feel.
Initially he is cut off from his feelings.
The process manager does a lot of
willingness testing and the tribe member on
the hot seat begins feeling. The process
manager and tribe encourage him to do more
of his forms, and he starts feeling more and
more. I notice how the process manager is
fully committed and continually tests for
willingness on the part of the hot seat
tribe member.
As the
tribe member on the hot seat feels more and
more and the judgment of feeling lifts from
him, he appears to undergo some type of
rebirthing experience in the sense of
being connected with his feelings. Once the
judgment against feeling is lifted, he
starts accepting all different kinds of
feelings ranging from joy with tingling in
his finger tips to feelings that take the
form of throwing up. He gets really
comfortable with all his feelings, even the
feeling of throwing up. He accepts that all
his feelings are just feelings, and he is
open to feeling them.
I learn
more about the importance of having
willingness to feel, willingness to share,
and willingness to ask for help from both
hot-seat tribe members. I am thankful for
them demonstrating such courage in sharing
their processes. I’m thankful for the
process manager for his commitment to help
fellow tribe members.
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you for sharing your process. |
Time Constants
Hi Ed,
I work on modelling the
milk glass game in excel.
I have a lot of trouble understanding the "Time
Constant."
The time constant in your example is 2 seconds.
At first I think the time constant is the time
it takes to fill the glass.
I notice this assumption is wrong, as it takes
approximately 9 seconds for the level to get to
0.99 of a cup in your example.
I do not understand where the 2 seconds comes
from?
I do not understand how to obtain or guess this
figure?
I read Nick Louca's paper.
Nick's example explains
"Some
system builders who are familiar with
this type of structure may condense the policy
and valve function into one shorthand variable,
the Time Constant."
Nick also states: "the Time Constant is the
reciprocal of the gain" and gives a figure of
0.632 sec as the time constant of the verified
system.
Nick explains that the time constant is a
convenient shorthand substitute for the control
policy and it is 2/3 of the time taken to travel
towards the target.
Is the time constant as simple as estimating 2/3
of the time taken to travel towards the target?
Is the 2 seconds just a rough approximation used
in order to construct the excel model?
Am I correct in thinking that Nick's 0.632 sec
as the actual time constant in the verified
model and that this replaces the 2 seconds time
constant in the initial unverified model?
I find some information on
time constants on the web. It’s heavy on
theory and mathematics and I gain no
understanding.
Are you able to provide a simple explanation
please.
Kind Regards
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In
physics and engineering, the Time Constant, usually the Greek
letter, τ (tau), indicates
the "rise time" of an exponential system.
In particular, the output of a system tracks the goal by moving
about 2/3 of the way toward the goal every tau.
You might consider taking your feelings of confusion to Tribe as
an entry point. |
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Thank
you for sharing your process.
Sometimes endless design refinements can provide a way to avoid
trading at all. |
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Thank
you for sharing your process.
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Thank
you for the report and for sharing your process.
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Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Differentials
Dear Mr. Ed
Seykota,
I hope you
are well. As I mentioned a while ago, I have been researching a
way to define trends.
IIn the
Trends section of the
Trading System
Project, the process used to obtain the daily rate of
change is essentially the same as the Resistor-Capacitor
differentiator circuit. This circuit consists of a capacitor C
and a resistor R connected in series, having time constant R*C.
If we apply an electrical signal (Vin) across the circuit, the
voltage that accumulates in the capacitor represents the
exponential lag and the voltage across the resistor is Vr =
R*C*dVin/dt. The voltage Vr represents the rate of change of the
input amplified by the Gain, which equals the time constant of
the circuit (Gain = R*C). To normalize Vr, we divide its value
by the Gain and we obtain the rate of change of Vin when the
circuit is in the
steady state.
For now,
let’s imagine that we have an
RC circuit
that can operate with dollars, a capacitor that can accumulate
dollars and a resistor that can resist to the flow of dollars in
and out of the capacitor.
In the
example in the Trends section, applying to the RC circuit a step
from 10$ to 20$ causes a transient. As the price accumulates in
the capacitor the exponential lag approaches 20$ and the price
across the resistor gradually approaches 0. If the stock
continues to rise from 20$ to 30$ to 40$ and so on, the RC
circuit gradually enters the
steady state,
the normalized output of the differentiator (the rate of change
of the input) reaches a constant value and the trend presents
itself.
Figure
1(a) illustrates an example where the closing
price of a stock trends at 1$/day.
RC circuits
with different
time constants track the closing price. Figure
1(b) shows the responses of the differentiators
and figure 1(c) shows the normalized output of
the differentiators (rate of change). We can observe that the
system with time constant 3 reaches the steady quickly and
tracks the price well. Systems with longer
time constants
(20 and 100) remained in the transient state throughout the
trend and did not track the price well.
To my
knowledge, it is almost impossible to find an RC system with a
time constant that tracks the markets exactly in the steady
state. One exception occurs when a market locks limit up or down
for several days.
Here the tool
for measuring the rate of change of the price is the RC
differentiator. The minimum time constant we may use with this
tool is 1, which may be used to define noise. For example, if we
track the price P with time constant 200, then the associated
noise is [dP/dt]/[time constant] = [dP/dt]/200 = [Today's Close
- Yesterday's Close]/200.
Figure
2(a) is a screenshot of the application I am
prototyping. It illustrates the Cocoa continuous future contract
(daily chart) and the exponential lag with time constant 650.
The plot on the right side illustrates the daily rate of change
(cyan line) and the associated noise (black lines). If we
decrease gradually the time constant (figures 2(b),
(c)) we observe that the [daily rate of change]/[noise]
ratio becomes smaller. In a way this is similar to the term ‘signal
to noise ratio’ used in engineering. As we decrease the
time constant, the [daily rate of change]/[noise] ratio drops
and it becomes harder to distinguish the signal from noise, but
at the same time the system tracks the price more closely and
occasionally may approach the steady state.
We may be
able to find, in a given period, an optimal time constant that
maximizes the
signal to noise ratio while at the same keeps the RC
circuit as close as possible to the steady state.
In figure
3 for example, the trend was up and the
RC circuit
with time constant 17 tracked the price better than circuits
with shorter or longer time constants. We can also see how the
optimal exponential lag may be used as an exit stop when the
price closes below the lag. When we use the daily chart and try
to track long term trends, the aforementioned method may not
work directly.
However,
Therefore,
for long term trends we may switch to the weekly, monthly,
11-day or any other n-day chart and then seek the optimal time
constant in order to determine the trend. In figure
4(a) is shown again the Cocoa future contract on the 17-day
chart. For this period, the optimal time constant that tracks
the price better is 27 and the trend is down. This is the same
as tracking the price with time constant 17*27 = 459 in the
daily chart. Within the same period, we may also observe shorter
term trends using the daily chart. For example, in figure
4(b) is shown a short term trend that is also
down and it is tracked better with time constant 9.
As you may
have noticed, the Y-axes in the future charts have title 'Value
per contract'. Because ultimately we want to hold a portfolio
with several instruments, there is need to normalize the future
contracts (because they have different specifications) and
stocks (because they have different price levels) so that the
system can compare trends across various instruments.
When we buy a
stock, money leaves the account because we invest in that stock.
Let’s assume that there are two stocks, 'X' at price 1000$ and
'Y' at price 100$ and both start to trend at 10$/day. If we buy
stock 'X' at price 1020$, then the daily rate of change basis
time constant 1, per invested dollar is 10$/day/1020$ =
0.0098/day. However if we buy stock 'Y' at price 120$ then the
daily rate of change per invested dollar is 10$/day/120$ =
0.083/day, which is ~8.5 times bigger compared to stock 'X'.
Because
futures are quoted in different units, in the attached charts I
have converted the contract's native units to $ value per
contract. This was done by multiplying each open, high, low and
close in the time series of the continuous contract by the
fraction: [TickValue specified for the contract]/[MinimumTick
specified for the contract]. When we initiate a position with a
future contract, dollars leave the account to cover the initial
margin and we must always set aside money to cover the overnight
maintenance margin. Therefore, when we open a position we invest
an amount equal to the initial plus the overnight maintenance
margin.
In figure 5
are plotted the daily
rates of change
basis time constant 200 for the Cocoa,
Eurodollar
and S&P continuous future contracts. Each time series has been
converted to $ value per contract and has been divided with the
margin (initial + overnight maintenance) requirements of the
associated contract. We can see how the time series can be
plotted together because now they have the same units.
Therefore, we can compare trends across various contracts. This
may provide a complementary way to select which instruments to
include in a portfolio and how to allocate the available capital
in a trading account across various positions.
I believe
that I have made progress and that the method described above to
define trends is ok, but it needs further work. I am currently
trying to turn this research into an automated system that will
trade with the trends.
Thank you for
your time.
Sincerely,
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You
might notice that in practice you cannot extract a differential
or determine the exact value of a trend.
The real-world process of differntiation measures the difference
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tribe Write-Up - Teasing
Ed,
I feel tired at the start of the meeting
and am worried that I won’t be able to pay attention.
A tribe member has an issue about teasing
and then not following through on something.
As we go through the process Ed recognizes that the
behavior is about deception, about leading a person to believe
one thing only to deny them at the last minute.
Ed is very careful here to assure that the
member is not just teasing the rest of us.
He makes sure that the member is willing to participate
and not just going to build us up and then stop.
Ed notes that processes that deal with deception have to
be monitored carefully to make sure the tribe isn’t being
deceived.
I am intrigued because during the middle of
one role play Ed seems to shift gears and ask the hotseat to
tell him where he feels it.
The hotseat develops another form and we process that one
then go back to the original.
This shift seemed to be the element that really opened
everything up and allowed the hotseat to truly experience his
feeling. I tell Ed
that I wonder how he knew to do this.
I feel surprise when he says it was just a feeling that
he got, a feeling that there was something deeper there.
I feel a similar way, but had I been managing the process
I would have just wrapped up the role play and assumed it was
all done.
I feel shame about the answer.
I expect a rules based response, an if this then do that
type of response. I
stop for a minute and experience that feeling.
I obtain wisdom.
It is okay to use your gut and take action from that.
I experience the shame and feel acceptance instead.
Thanks Ed for providing the space to gain
wisdom.
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tribe Write-Up - Exclusion
Ed,
The Tribe Meeting is interesting tonight.
We go through our projects and discuss the mock evidence
for completeness we have brought in.
I find it very interesting to note how many people have
trouble coming up with documentation that the rest of the tribe
thinks actually proves they have met their goal.
A couple of people do succeed in getting all members of
the tribe to give them a pass on their documentation.
It is interesting to me that those members who got all
passes seem to have the simplest documentation of all.
I realize that clarity of purpose seems to breed
simplicity of proof.
The more clear the goal, the more clear the purpose the easier
it is to define what success is.
Tonight we all also go through a process or
rather try to. The
person who went through the process seemed to not be making a
connection to any feeling throughout the evening.
Despite numerous attempts to generate forms or role play
I felt a lack of real connection.
There was no feeling.
It became clear to the tribe that this person is not
willing or able to feel.
He wants to think and reason.
He can analyze and imitate some of the motions, but he
was unable to feel.
The Tribe asks him to leave.
At first I feel surprised by this development, but after
a while I realize that this was all of our intention.
This person was looking for a chance to be left out and
passed over (that’s what his process was about).
He get’s what he wants.
This was the rest of our intention as well.
Maybe we needed to feel saying goodbye or something else.
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Friday, September 3, 2010
From Control to Intimacy
Ed,
I have not seen my children
for a couple of days. As I see them, my daughter
asks me how I am doing now. I can feel her
sincere interest on me. My son says “Dad,
how are your projects doing, your band, the
Tribe?”. Each time when he sees me he
asks me “how are you doing?”. It is not a
stereotype question: I feel that he really means
it and wants to know about me. Somehow, he is
learning to receive.
I recall these children one
year ago, telling me that they are afraid of me.
I remember my first snapshot,
“I have a better relationship with my son”.
I give myself this beautiful
“pass”.
I am aware of the work in
front of me. I keep on taking care of the garden
and support the flowers perfuming the air.
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Dear Tribe,
I am struggling to stick with my plan to set up
a
trend trading system. As I say this I try
to enjoy the feeling of blocking myself! It
doesn’t feel so great, but at least I can feel
the blockage, and it seems to emanate from some
tightness in my abdomen, and there is tightness
in my chest too.
After
completing a careful reading of Pardo’s EOTS ed.
2, instead of taking the next step and trying to
decide about a
trading system development platform, I
allowed myself to be consumed with running my
advisory business. As I have a fiduciary
obligation to my clients this is not a difficult
choice. They come first.
I have
registered a tribe but have no members yet other
than myself. I am pretty sure Ed might tell me
to meet with myself to discuss this lack of
membership!
I had a special
birthday yesterday and my family put on quite a
feast. It was heartwarming and made turning 53
feel okay. I am so lucky to have such a nice
family that is healthy and cares about things
like birthdays, schoolwork, music, football
games, and quality of life.
TTP and the TTP Workshop have helped me
in many ways. Ed’s illustration of the quadrants
was a fantastic metaphor and I use it all the
time now for myself and clients. Thank you Ed!
I’m not trading
now yet I am investing. I don’t trade after
reading Pardo because I feel foolish doing so
without being systematic about it. I learn how
haphazard my
personal investment decisions once were.
I did not treat my client assets like I did my
own. Today I allow myself a rational investment
plan, that I once had, but someone how abandoned
and took leave of my senses in 2008.
I rationalize
my advisory practice by adopting an approach
that is in what I’ll call Ed’s Northwest
Quadrant I, Boring and profitable. I accept that
I did not know this simple rule before the
workshop and it cost me plenty. We get what we
intend! I cannot fathom my intensions then, but
they certainly feel different now.
Charles
Faulkner gave me some solid advice regarding how
to set aside time to think about my system
building. I have not acted on his advice and the
result is predictable. I accept that I have
limited time each day and there are constant
trade-offs. I don’t give up but my head hurts
sometimes as I reconcile these conflicting
objectives of trading actively myself, and
actively managing passive indexes for my
clients. Again, I am bound to put my clients
first.
Our 14 year old
son (now 15) went off to “adventure camp” last
July and returned early with a broken scapula
after wrecking a mountain bike. Life on life’s
terms can be frightening. I am thankful he makes
a full recovery and learned something about his
vulnerabilities.
I have a
prospective client coming in 8 minutes or so and
I am enormously grateful that I went to Trading
Tribe Sticking with your System Workshop. It has
grounded me like no other workshop I can think
of and it is helping me grow my practice. In my
heart I believe I will get to the successful
trend trading system that is my commitment. I
allow myself some time. The pit in my stomach
has left me and my chest is no longer tight.
Writing to all of you has helped me and I thank
you all for supporting me in my commitment, as I
support you.
Best wishes,
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